I come to a conclusion that God doesn't need me to run His church.
God doesn't need my skills, talents, expertise, resources for His ministry.
If there is something that needs to be done, God can do it with or without me, regardless.
At the thought of this, it humbles me....(granted, one ain't really humble when they admit they are humble). It changes my thinking that the church doesn't need me. And in times when I have negative feelings toward the church (the organization, building, people etc...), I am greatly reminded that no one, no brothers and sisters, owns me anything. Not even God.
He calls me to come to serve. That's what the word, deacon, stands for. To serve.
And to serve.
A role to serve is a privilege. Not a right.
Good reminder indeed.
God doesn't need me.
God doesn't require me to do many things (or anything).
God can make things happen with or without me.
Yet, He is so caring to give me a role in His ministry....
I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has given me strength, that he considered me faithful, appointing me to his service. Even though I was once a blasphemer and a persecutor and a violent man, I was shown mercy because I acted in ignorance and unbelief. The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.
1 Timothy 1:12-14
[Side note: Notice Paul wrote he is shown mercy because he acted in ignorance and unbelief. Mercy, in this case, is shown to those who are wrong. Is shown because he was wrong...]