So if you are reading this, please pray for me and my church as the issue is sensitive.
There is only one focus I desire...to strengthen up the Church and the body of Christ. This ain't just about me or what I desire. Rather I have to consider the future of my congregation and my church. There are new Christian and weak in faith that needs encouragement and strengthening.
To lay down my own agenda and have a somber mind and a clear conscience. To uphold the truth and the Gospel. May I have the wisdom to discern the Will of God. And after such discernment to act boldly and courageous with no fear nor shame. So 5,10 years from now, I can look at this point in life and see this is where God continue to be sovereign and work all things together for good. That this is where He mold and prune me to hold ever stronger to the mystery of the faith with a clear conscience.
Psalm 142 - Prayer for Help in Trouble...
I cry aloud with my voice to the LORD;
I make supplication with my voice to the LORD.
I pour out my complaint before Him;
I declare my trouble before Him.
When my spirit was overwhelmed within me,
You knew my path
In the way where I walk
They have hidden a trap for me.
Look to the right and see;
For there is no one who regards me;
There is no escape for me;
No one cares for my soul.
I cried out to You, O LORD;
I said, "You are my refuge,
My portion in the land of the living.
"Give heed to my cry,
For I am brought very low;
Deliver me from my persecutors,
For they are too strong for me.
"Bring my soul out of prison,
So that I may give thanks to Your name;
The righteous will surround me,
For You will deal bountifully with me."