Faith

Exodus 3
Moses and the Burning Bush

11 But Moses said to God, "Who am I, that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?"

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13 Moses said to God, "Suppose I go to the Israelites and say to them, 'The God of your fathers has sent me to you,' and they ask me, 'What is his name?' Then what shall I tell them?"

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Exodus 4

1 Moses answered, "What if they do not believe me or listen to me and say, 'The LORD did not appear to you'?"

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10 Moses said to the LORD, "O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue."

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13 But Moses said, "O Lord, please send someone else to do it."
14 Then the LORD's anger burned against Moses...
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The first time I joined a group to swim in open water was quite an experience. The day was windy and cloudy. From the wind, the lake has rolling waves. It is one thing to enjoy the scenery of the waves. It is another to plunge in for a swim. The water is murky. The waves smack you around. It feels like swimming in a washing machine.

There is a lot of fear and hesitation. What if I drown? What if the under current grab me and I can't get out? What if there is something in the water? Despite, knowing full well that the lake has no monsters or sharks, the fear, the unknown stir my heart.

As I stand at the beach, looking at the waves and finding the courage to take the first swim, it is like following Christ.

We just need to have faith. For myself, lately, I become aware the point where I have to give up myself and have faith in Him.

It reminds me of Moses when God commands him to bring his people out of Egypt.

Over and over again, Moses protest that he is not qualify to do so. He is old, he cannot speak, no one will believe him. God again and again show His Sovereign power with miracles and assurance that He will be with him.

As I am praying and discerning for God's guidance on going to Mac Div, I am hesitant. It is one thing to have a well lay path and know what the next few years is like. It is another when I know the destination but the path is twisted with turns and at some point, the path simply does not exist.

So here I am, sitting in front of my laptop in my room. I can still envision the time I was standing by the lake looking at the waves. With sand between my toes and the feel of the crisp air. Part of me have a lot of concern. Maybe this is not safe. Maybe I might get hurt. Maybe this is is not for me. The unknown. The uncertainty. Blah blah blah. I took the plunge.

Only this time, instead of training for an Ironman, a test of mental and physical will, I will be discovering how far my faith lies.