Journey

The course (Christian Ethics: Money, Sex and Power) I am taking at Mac Div we are evaluated on weekly discussions.

A few days ago, I got a mark on my discussions.

They were better than I expected. Praise the Lord!

Going back to this....the purpose for me to go to Mac Div is not to get good marks. It is not about the results but about the journey. I am happy and I wonder if I am just as happy if my marks are poor (rejoice in all circumstances??).

Well, I have to continue to remind myself about why I started this journey. It is not about the marks. It is often very easy to manipulate the education system to get better grades. To look good on paper. Like taking the same course I took in the audit earlier this year. Or picking an topic which I know full well already.

And God looks at none of that...only our hearts.

Although there are times I am tempted to do so, I have to remind myself, this is all about my spiritual growth and seek His Will. Doing so requires one look hard in the mirror. And when one comes to face to face with one true self, the ugliness and the sinfulness of oneself. It is risky. Risky in one exposing himself and realize who he really is. Risky in not willing to accept one true self. Like the man who stares the mirror and walk away forgetting what he looks like.

As for me, I guess I am radical (or weird...depend on how you see it). I like to find out where that road will lead. And I sometimes I shudder to think like that...because comfort zone is...comforting.

We have one final paper coming for this course. I am going to dig deep. I am going to be discussing on how one Christian should use the blessing (aka money) he received to serve the Kingdom. My questions will include:

- what does Jesus and the Bible say about Christian living with money?
- how does this apply to me? A Christian living in the western country that is wealthy beyond the majority of the world.

And you are welcome to follow the ride (by reading my blog)....though I must say this ride ain't for the faint hearted...for there will be many bumps along the way. And some thoughts and ideas you might be comfortable with.

And I know for me, I will be finding out more than I ever conceive of. I hope that I have the obedience and discipline to conform to His Will..and not mine.