Is His Grace sufficient for me?

2 Corinthians 12: 7-10:

7To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

I've been telling others that His Grace is sufficient for me. When the rubber meets the road, is it sufficient? When hardship comes, where do I rely my strength on?

If it is, why do my heart sank when I am alone fighting a ministry I am convicted to serve? Why do I long for a bro or sis to stand by me?

Is that coming from a desire for fellowship? Or mere self pity?

Yesterday I had a discussion with a sister about faith. She said that it is not God that is unfaithful, it is us. We do not have enough faith to rely on God to provide.

So back to the statement, God's Grace is sufficient enough for me. It is and I will show myself that it is.

And I will make myself insufficient by not relying on worldly ways. Instead I will pour my soul into faith and let God's Grace to sustain me for the rest of my life.